On the doorstep of a colonoscopy here after a super fun night of prep. It’s been a whirlwind of checking health stuff over the last two and a half months. I’m so tired of having to think like I do and thinking about this stuff because my life is now pretty good otherwise! I got a better position at the company I’ve worked for for almost 14 years. I’m getting married in October. But since I had cancer when I was a kid and it killed two of my best friends in their mid 40s and your dude is turning 45 in 2.5 weeks, I’m hyper aware/vigilant of feeling poorly. And I’m not being a hypochondriac…I have permanent problems because I had cancer. It’s just that my anxiety makes everything bigger. But if I don’t thoroughly get checked out and spend time trying to figure out what’s going on, THAT’S when whatever will get me.

Please excuse the rambling and I hope there’s sense here somewhere. Needed to vent. Love you guys.