I'm not going to derail another thread with your stuff.
I will say that I'm sorry if "crazy" offended you. I have seen you refer to yourself as such. There was no malicious intent behind that word.
Also, this is basically the most civil and cordial community that I have ever participated in online. If you think people here are rude, then the Internet is probably not for you.
I have stood up for you when people were being dicks. But if a friend went through the same story as you have, I would be telling them the exact same things I say to you... Bad ideas all around. Because that's what friends do. If you want people to sugar coat things and tell you that you're making great decisions... Again, the Internet is probably not for you.
I hope you prove us wrong and you guys find stability and happiness. It just seems extremely sketchy and impulse driven at this time.
I'm done talking about it now.