I had a doctor appointment today and decided to tell him that my memory is going. Like, there are times when I am talking or thinking and I get to a word and my brain just shuts down and I can't go any further. Usually I can think around the word I want with synonyms and antonyms - because I can see the word, I just can't say it - and I get there eventually but there are an increasing number of times when it's just a full stop.

Memory is one of the biggest things that shape who you are and it's like admitting you're weak, to borrow a phrase from fragile male egos. I mean, I didn't put it on the paperwork as a reason I was there because I didn't want his nurses to know ffs. But he's a great guy and helped with some stuff back when my wife was really sick and hurting so it was 'easy' to open up to him. Really weird to feel my body/mind telling me nooooooo while I was talking about it.