The Friendship Thread

[elevenism]

i had a super tight knit crew in Dallas: people who were like my brothers and sisters, some of whom I started kicking it with in elementary school.
But when i moved up here to this town of 2000 people, well, i wasn't able to hang out with my friends anymore, obviously.
Also, several of those people have died since i've been here.

I keep in touch with my old friends through facebook, but strangely, i talk a LOT more with people i've met here.
My best friends are @thelastdisciple , @RocketScience and @allegro , yet we've never hung out in real life.
But these past few years, I've done more messaging and emailing with those three than I've done with everyone else I know put together

IRL, i guess my only friend is the preacher at the church where i play guitar. i mean that's the only person i've actually chilled with in this town.
Aside from that i've got my wife and my mother.
IDK what i'd do without the above mentioned internet friends.

The future is fucking strange.

Yeah I had ONE really good lifelong friend who was living in this town but he bounced pretty quick after I moved here to take advantage of the benefits he can receive living on tribal land in OK.
I also had a dear friend from Dallas who had moved to Amarillo (eighty miles from here but better than nothing) and it was badass when we got together, but he fell in love and headed back to D Town.

but, yeah, I don't like interacting TOO much with people here: everyone knows everyone else's business and likes to.gossip and I want no part of that shit.

And so there it is: that's why my post count is so absurd and I've such a penchant for pms here. I left my people in Dallas and I just get so fucking LONELY and BORED here.

Annnnnnnnnd, THIS post is an essay. Oops.

Edit: I'm 38 too @somewhat_ and it's kind of hard making new friends at this age.
Also, people here are so ultra conservative. And I'm literally the ONLY dude with long hair and big plugs in the lobes and such.

Disturbingly, my family has been here since right after the civil war, so EVERYONE knows who I AM, but I don't know them. :/
Everyone says "how's your mom!?" and " i sure wish you'd known your grandpa; he was such a special person" and it's fucking unsettling because I don't know who these people are!