Haha, one of my friends who is my age (29) is actually one of these lotto addicts, I've always questioned why he does it.... he knows full well the odds never really change but i asked him.. "you know in the long run exactly how much money will you have spent on this shit versus how much you'll have made back in return?" he didn't really answer my question and just kinda shrugged. He's not even well off for cash, it actually irritates me that he wastes his money the way that he does but whatever it's his life.
Speaking of addiction, my mom has been watching the home shopping channel and ordering shit she doesn't need.
I go to pick up the mail and there are like five new packages sometimes. And she never leaves the house.
But I kind of justify her doing it as entertainment. Like it's exciting to sit there and think about what you're gonna buy, and I look at it like she's paying for having that feeling for ten hours.
Yesterday was a train wreck on many levels but I endured. I think I just need to accept I’m not going to get what I want, earned and deserve out of this life. Hope is a desert oasis I occasionally think I see and then it dissipates. Tired of getting fooled by it.
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the last few days have been fucking intense, for reasons I don't even feel comfortable talking about, even on here. Let me just say that intense, recurrent, crippling anxiety attacks are not cool.
I hate it when people use their kids an excuse for poor job performance, frequent absences or tardiness. If I were the manager, then I would fire someone. It wouldn't be hard to replace her. People are dropping off resumes all the time. If that makes me sound like an ogre, then so be it.
i posted something about this a while ago and with school back in session. usually when it comes to travel assignments i am usually take one for the team guy because i'm single and have no family. and i generally like the miles and points. although airline miles are pretty fucked now days and most hotels don't give points and my copmpany has scaled back on travel expenses. I also felt i was of being a caring human. so when i passed this last time i was met with much stink face and grumbles. well look i hate when things are assumed om my behalf
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Ok so I'm at this hotel in Amarillo (my mom and I had several appointments this week; my wife stayed home with spike to save money on pet deposit.)
I've ONLY watched Roku for like 5 years; I abhor regular tv at this point.
And the Roku box I brought doesn't work.
But I figured, ok, I'm not gonna be a bitch about it. I'll just watch regular tv.
Well, the fucking SOUND just went out on the TV in here, just completely and totally out.
Lolololololol. This fucking BLOWS.
i got sick last night and, while it'll be nice to have a day at home without work, i wish i wasn't feeling so much like shit. i also wish that when i had a sick day i didn't end up getting so depressed. i don't do well being alone all day. i also tend to just sit and watch tv while being on the internet instead of doing something like reading & listening to records (what i'd prefer to do) because i have a hard time focusing.
Why can't they make extra large thin crust? Or medium deep dish?
@kel i.finally figured out a vitamin D solution.
i got I gigantic bottle of vitamin D gummy vitamins and put them in the kitchen.
They taste like gummy bears.
Now my only problem is to not take TOO MUCH of it, lol.
Gummies are what work best for me too, fwiw.
Seriously about the gummies. I was always really bad about taking vitamins, now being middle aged it's getting important, so a few years back i started on the gummies and it is so much easier. You'd think since chewing takes more muscles than swallowing a pill that the straight pills would be easiest, but, for whatever reason, nah. So yeah. Gummies.
Fuck passive aggressive psychotic violent people who self-medicate and act like fucking clowns and then sneak around behind your back and break your shit because they're too scared to try that shit to your face.
Well, I had hoped that it was the ETS servers that were the issue but apparently work finally blocked the site. God damn my days have been boring. I don't know if the site is on a list or if it scans meta data but there it is. So I'm on twitter more, and that's it's own "fuck this sucks" kind of thing.
If one more reporter calls Fentanyl "Fentan-All," my fucking head is going to blow up.
It frustrates me that people can't pronounce klonipin (they say Ka-lonipin,) but this is different for a couple of reasons. For one thing, KL is pretty rare in English.
But the thing that REALLY pisses me off is that these are REPORTERS talking about this opiate crisis business that is a.)life and death and b.) directly affects me and my family.
If you're going to say that people fucking died from it, pronounce it right. If you're going to say that people like my 60 year old disabled mother should no longer receive it (and yes, the hammer is about to fall,) pronounce it right.
And this is from sheer fucking ignorance. I mean, there are a lot of drugs that end with "yl" or "il." I've never heard anyone say " minoxad-all. "
It's because, I think, that several narcotics (specifically barbiturates) end in "al ?" Perhaps?
anyway this drives me fucking INSANE. Like I wish these people, these journalists and lawmakers would LEARN HOW TO SAY THE GODDAMNED WORD before they start yammering about it.
Idk. I guess it's like nuclear/nookyoulur?
Like it's some kind of mental block for some people perhaps?
But I don't think it's that. I think it's sheer ignorance.
SO: if my head blows up, you guys can explain to the authorities that, in an indirect way, I was another fentanyl casualty.
While I'm ranting: if one more fucking purported theologian or minister or fucking bible "expert" or judgemental Christian says "Book of revelationS," my head might blow up from that.
When someone from this website decides to take it upon themselves to take screencaps of my FetLife profile and send it to one of the most important people in my life. For no apparent reason other than destroying something great.
You succeeded, you absolute piece of shit. Great job! It must be exhausting being that much of an asshole.
That's more than a little fucked. What is wrong with people?
Wait, someone from HERE? Like ETS here? That's pure shit. You and i don't see eye to eye in a lot of ways, but that is a dick fucking move. Assuming you know who it was, did you pass it to Admin? I am really hoping this person is getting a perma-ban. I always feel like ETS is my Vegas, what happens on ETS stays on ETS. Shit like that is a massive, massive breach of personal space.
Single minded group think is more than annoying. Just one step away from mass hysteria. Why don't people think as individuals anymore? Perhaps I have simply lived to long and can't relate to the new normal. Us versus them. No middle ground. Perhaps this is not a little thing, and perhaps it makes me sad more than pisses me off, but this thread seemed appropriate. So be it.
working on a collab song with a guy and my vocal track is never good enough for him: he keeps sending it back for tweaks, and we're now nearly two weeks over deadline; he has me hostage because I really want this track to make the compilation album I wrote it for, and so I'm jumping through hoops to make him happy, and I'm fucking sick of it. We've come this far and I want to be done with the track, but he's non-stop directing me to fit his vision of perfection instead of just wrapping this up.
Aaaaaand the submission window is closing today. This guy's dickshittery is going to cost me the song's appearance.