bleedthrough(s); missing a part of myself, wondering if you've seen it?

[adjren]

Complete lack of inspiration, a little worried you'll find me; a little worried you won't.. a little worried what will happen if you do.

There's a piece of me missing, and I've rejected my 'mentor/savior/exlover/idol' from my being.

Why do I still feel so incomplete? Why can't I connect to the inspiration I used to, and am I even supposed to?

Am I to flicker out, a man child; or is there really a bigger purpose and an essential energy I've lost?

I've never known if you're safe; If I can trust you, or if I can trust who you consort with. I'm worried you may muddy my being the same way she did.

I know you'll find this somehow, but if I sense even the slightest glimmer of danger towards myself or the ones I love and protect, I will disappear again.

center

grounding

protecting

healing

but afraid to reach out.




https://soundcloud.com/adjren/a-djren-children-of-a-lesser-god

[Ryan]

Is this Trent doing some bizarre marketing to bring back the Bleedthrough concept from 2003?

[adjren]

https://soundcloud.com/adjren/lqi7sw95csxz

[screwdriver]

https://soundcloud.com/adjren/lqi7sw95csxz
hey, that was pretty cool for what it was

[adjren]

You have no idea how much I appreciate that. I've been producing music by myself, but I'm so lost as to what direction I want to take. And I apologize for the vagueness of this post.. I met someone here once. Wanted to throw a message in a bottle out and see if she catches it.