The little things that scare/depress you.

[Halo Infinity]

We seem to have anger and happiness covered, so I thought of making a thread like this based on fear and sadness. I'll start with the following. I'll make it at least 10 things for now. I suppose you can also include shame and worry in this thread as well, since they are both also very connected to fear.

1. Getting lost.

2. The thought of being run over from crossing the street at the wrong place and time.

3. The thought of running over people by accident and crashing into things, since this is also connected to the horrors of prison, aside from the thought of having to live your life knowing that you've killed somebody or a group of people.

4. Being wrong, and making blunders.

5. Saying the wrong thing and getting into a fight afterwards. I'm always afraid of making enemies.

6. Failing an exam.

7. Being on people's bad sides, especially if they're among friends and family.

8. Being a failure in all levels.

9. Looking stupid.

10. The thought of getting bullied and mugged, and just flat-out getting my ass kicked.

[playwithfire]

1. Death (Like, it's a problem.)

2. The depressing parts about aging.

3. Cockroaches

4. Occasional OCDish thoughts about poison/toxic things.

5. Republicans.

6. Incuriosity/ignorance.

7. My lack of experience/constant getting older.

[littlemonkey613]

^I have a Death problem too.
Ever since I was 15 I haven't gone a day without thinking about it a lot. It's kind of sad b/c I feel like it keeps me out of the moment, in a weird way though I appreciate everything a lot more. Like I love life so much and thats why I never want to let it go. Im very uncomfortable with how much I relate to Voldemort though......My fear of death is pretty extreme..

[Fixer808]

I went to bed around 4am Sunday morning, woke up around noon. Didn't get out of bed until 4pm, and that was only to slide into the bathtub for an hour.
That said, I was reading in the tub, which made me happy.

http://s3-ec.buzzfed.com/static/enhanced/webdr01/2013/8/22/15/enhanced-buzz-19581-1377201296-8.jpg
This one. But the rest at times (http://www.buzzfeed.com/hnigatu/comics-that-capture-the-frustrations-of-depression):

[frankie teardrop]

i can get into this thread. especially as a venting place for the little things that really make me sad. today's example: overweight woman gets on the train this morning before everyone gets off. beelines for a seat, cutting off an old man with a cane. proceeds to open her dripping-with-fat breakfast sandwich (already a no-no on the train), drops her napkin.

not only does she notice the dropped napkin, but she proceeds to kick it under the seat.

shit like that doesn't really anger me so much as makes me really, really depressed.

[eyehaveyes]

I fear I might have this.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trigeminal_neuralgia
I see a neurologist next week.

[frankie teardrop]

otherwise, i hate those damn house centipedes with a firey passion:

http://shotgunwildatheart.files.wordpress.com/2011/01/housecentipede2.jpg

i always shriek like a little girl when i see one. they're so god damn fast.

also have an (ir)rational fear/fascination with sharks and deep sea critters...

[marodi]

What scares me? Pretty much everything. Here's a short list:

1. Being judge by others
2. Being laughed at
3. Looking stupid
4. Getting lost in an unknown place
5. Going to new places
6. Going to places I already know but where I had a bad experience
7. Going to the library to borrow books because the guy behind the counter keeps making comments on the books I borrow (last time, he said I had a man's taste in books)
8. Paying for something with my debit card and having it not working
9. Answering the door (I never do it unless I know who it is)
10. Answering the phone (same as the door)
11. All existing bugs
12. My mom dying
13. Other important people in my life dying
14. My cat dying
15. Eating in public
16. Speaking in public
17. Having to ask for help on anything
18. Being late
19. Forgetting stuff
20 During winter, slipping and falling.

I'll think of something else later. As for what makes me sad:

Everything related to animal abuse. I see dead animals on the side of the road that were obviously hit by a car and I cry.
Everything related to child abuse.
Not being able to help everyone who needs it as much as I want to.

[thefragile_jake]

The fact that I'm 26 and haven't played a show with a band in 6 years. I'm only getting older but I have no time with my job (which I hate) and everything else in my life. I know people say to "make time"....but it's really hard to do that sometimes.

I just miss playing music sometimes.

=/

[Halo Infinity]

Perhaps this can also include awkward things, since awkward things can be little, while making you fearful, considering how awkwardness preys on our insecurities.

Whenever I forget my watch before going to a school or work setting, not just because it could increase my chances of arriving late, but just knowing that I normally couldn't take out my iPod or cell-phone without pissing off a boss or a teacher, even if it's to just check out the time.

And I see that I've been beaten to the mentions of roaches and house centipedes. I'll also include slugs, worms, bees, hornets, wasps, and spiders to that list as well.

[Halo Infinity]

I really thought it was worth bumping for this because I really take it to heart.

Making posts that are far too personal on ETS, or posts that make me look stupid due to being too obvious or negligent, especially when they come across as really stupid questions. I'm terribly sorry for those off moments. I really take the delete function as a very merciful gift bestowed upon me on ETS. :p

I also have a constant fear of getting in trouble.

[aggroculture]

My stupidity will be the end of me one day.
I constantly miss key details, make mistakes, stumble along in a haze of assumptions instead of actually checking. I blame others and whine about things rather than going and sorting out the problem.
I make errors of judgment, clouded by my ego and sense of victimization, clinging to a comforting belief that the "world isn't fair."
I seek out pleasure, bliss, and annihilation in food, art, music, porn, literature, shopping...instead of doing the work I should be doing, or learning and bettering myself.
I give up too soon, lack focus and get bored fast, leaving projects strewn and unfinished, and wallow in my own failure and lack of achievement.
I am unable to control my appetite, or my emotions. I give into anger and hate and jealousy.

And here I am again: venting, into a void.

[theruiner]

Echoing what a few other people here have said, death. Big time.

[allegro]

Life without any fear is boring. I try to do something that scares the shit out of me as often as possible.

[theimage13]

Dying alone.
(Living alone, too.)

[Halo Infinity]

Those are two are among those fears I understand the most, since even if money wasn't an issue with living alone and dying alone, old age can sometimes find a way to torment you if you're careless and/or unlucky. I suppose you could say that I have a fear of old age too. Even the thought of not being able to walk again in old age is frightening enough. No wonder why I just block that out of my mind.

Oh yes, and even though I have my doubts of it, the very concept of Hell is another thing that scares and depresses me on many levels simultaneously.

[Halo Infinity]

I just thought I'd bump this just to add that expressing myself whenever I'm sad, angry, or even joking around sometimes makes me scared and depressed. I could also see how this could very-well belong in the Mental Health Thread, but I thought of using this one for now.

Being angry/sad scares me because I'm afraid I might get in trouble and get hurt, or doing something very stupid, reckless, regrettable and irreversible.

As for joking around, it's because I sometimes can't tell the difference between a harmless joke and somebody going in for the kill. (Verbally/typographically speaking that is. And it's also certainly a hell lot harder differentiate such things on the Internet sometimes.) And if it's not about me being attacked, or my fear of getting attacked, the same also goes for myself, since I can run the risk of pushing somebody's buttons for little to no good reason, and that's obviously never cool. Perhaps I should just stick to staying on the sidelines and leave the jokes to the professionals.

Anyway, I'm still trying to work this out, and hope to still get better at not making those same mistakes over and over again.

Oh, and for the record, I'm talking about the kind of joking around that's like an April Fool's joke that also sort of looks like a diss.

[Halo Infinity]

This seemed to be the only thread for me to place this post because it actually depresses me far more than it'll ever anger me. I also have no room to talk in this matter, and will admit that I've been guilty of complaining a lot in my lifetime.

As for what I'm talking about, people that literally complain all the time. I mean like 24/7/365 in real life and all over the Internet post after post, and rant after rant in real life. It can obviously get infuriating, but it can also be extremely depressing and draining, as I even catch myself feeling very sorry for them. I'm no saint when it comes to this, but I've learned that sometimes or even lots of times that complaining can be very shameful and unnecessary, especially when it's done frequently. I even find expressing anger and sadness shameful. It's no wonder why people mock those emotions, and complaints also make one an even bigger target for conflict and/or ridicule.

This isn't to say that there are never and valid reasons for complaining and negative emotions though, but there are people out there that will even go as far as to complain about every little thing, every single day, or week of the year. Some of them are also cruel, rude, belligerent, and ill-tempered to the point that their attitudes are usually insufferable if not already melancholy. I wouldn't want to have anything to do with people like that. If it's not about fighting, they're definitely highly likely to make an attempt to manipulate your emotions so that they can walk all over you and have you do their bidding.

If I was guilty of this at any point on ETS for any moment, and I sure I've been in some ways, I definitely apologize for it. I just need more self-control and self-awareness, and should've only posted when I was in a good mood. (And yes, I definitely see the irony of posting and using this very thread to say that as it is a downer thread, and can be a downer thread, but I also just wanted to get it out of my system, and out there on ETS.)

[halloween]

War.
Politicians.
Greed.

[Little_Dreamer]

What scares me? Pretty much everything. Here's a short list:

1. Being judge by others
2. Being laughed at
3. Looking stupid
4. Getting lost in an unknown place
5. Going to new places
6. Going to places I already know but where I had a bad experience

8. Paying for something with my debit card and having it not working
9. Answering the door (I never do it unless I know who it is)
10. Answering the phone (same as the door)
11. All existing bugs
12. My mom dying
13. Other important people in my life dying

15. Eating in public
16. Speaking in public
17. Having to ask for help on anything
18. Being late
19. Forgetting stuff
20 During winter, slipping and falling.

basically all of this. Plus spiders.
And I'm scared of the thought of never having children, which also makes me sad. Very sad. I'll be 34 in august, so I get the feeling that I'm running out of time.
So I guess I'm also scared of getting old.

[Ryan]

Stop being pussies!

[Halo Infinity]

I don't mean to argue, but it really does seem like it's more acceptable to display happiness and even anger over fear and sadness. I can actually understand that though, as anger usually doesn't leave people appearing or being feeble, cowardly, and shameful when compared to fear and sadness. However, I could also see how anger can also make somebody appear or even become feeble, cowardly, and shameful, so I guess it depends. Then again, negative emotions always carry negative vibes and situations with them anyway.

[Charmingly Miserable]

Being forgotten.

[Halo Infinity]

Loneliness. It's one of the hardest forms of depression for me to explain. It's definitely not always easy to understand, as it really does seem to be among the more complex and confusing forms of depression. It literally feels cold sometimes. :confused:

[Charmingly Miserable]

Loneliness. It's one of the hardest forms of depression for me to explain. It's definitely not always easy to understand, as it really does seem to be among the more complex and confusing forms of depression. It literally feels cold sometimes. :confused:
I totally get you and along with a fear of being forgotten, loneliness is right up there for me. How come we don't live closer together? ;)

[Halo Infinity]

Thank you for the compliment as it was rather flattering. And yeah, why don't we? Enormous distances are so stupid sometimes. :p

And to add to the topic, people that are never afraid or almost never afraid to make enemies. Don't get me wrong, sometimes it's great to not be afraid of making enemies, but sometimes you never know just how much of a threat somebody could turn into once they become angry, loathsome, argumentative, and insulting to you, or just end up showing and giving you their bad side in general, especially when you didn't do anything wrong to that person. It doesn't even have to be an act of physically brutal/fatal violence either. Words also have a destructive power and danger of their own.

I've also noticed that people that are never afraid or almost never afraid to make enemies are also great at making themselves the enemy, while being untrustworthy and obnoxious, reckless instigators every which way for little to no good reason. This isn't to say that there are people that aren't afraid of making enemies for noble reasons such as standing up for themselves, doing the right thing, or defending their family and friends though, but I've also seen the dark side of that lack of fear far too many times, and even one time is far too many.

[kel]

1. the ocean. i've gotten my feet wet on both u.s. coasts, but i would never go knee deep or spend any significant time on a beach.

2. dogs. all dogs. not scared of them, but have a hypersensitive love for them. all of them. it's beyond depressing.

3. working retail when i turn 35.

4. watching old people eat.

[Big Fat Matt]

1: Loss

2: Change

3: Lonliness

4: Dying before I have made a significant (on some scale) contribution to the society in which I live, in a non-monetary sense.

[elevenism]

Like some of the rest of you, i go through phases of having a semi-irrational, all consuming fear of death, my own death.

My parents are getting older, and i can get tearful thinking about losing my mother, which WILL happen eventually.

The healthcare issue honestly makes my fucking blood boil. I want universal healthcare in the US just like we have in the rest of the civilized world. My girlfriend and I SERIOUSLY looked in to moving to canada, but they don't want us.

But most of all, i fear abandonment and loneliness.
That's why i'm who treats me like utter shit...i'm actually afraid to even talk to her, because she says hurtful things to me. Everyone in the relationship thread has tried to talk me into leaving her.
I know i should, but i am so scared of being hurt, of being alone.
I'm pretty damn good looking (and vain ;), ) and i've got the long haired musician thing going, plus i'm very well read and book smart. I guess what i'm trying to say is that i have absolutely no trouble finding beautiful women to share my life and bed.
But i don't think i can handle breaking up.

I also fear that she doesn't love me anymore.

[aggroculture]

Yes, but your self-respect is worth more than fear of being alone.

[halloween]

Here's something...I have a dream of being a bee keeper. I am afraid that I will never achieve it =[ Just as a hobby. I'm swamped with other life stuff and I can't even predict if I'll be in the same spot in 5 months. I wonder if I'll be able to make a commitment to place long enough to have a hive or two of my own for funsies and saving the world.
It makes me sad thinking "what if it doesn't happen!!"

[Timinator]

Indulgent, self-important introspection masquerading as sensitivity.

[Halo Infinity]

The overall death and demise of physical media. Amazon.com and the online stores for retailers are my only hope for the most part now. I also suppose that I still enjoy collecting physical media when it comes to my favorite musicians, authors, TV shows, movies, and video games. Even as just a Generation Y kid, it really is sad for me to see it all go away, and I'd also be in denial if I said it never had that affect on me. However, I still liked getting some SNES games on my Nintendo Wii, and it sure beat going to eBay, so I'm not trying to say that it's all bad, or that I'm against going digital. (I'm a fan of collecting and supporting whenever I can, and you could say I'm a loyal Nintendo fan after all these years.)

I suppose I'm just going to miss going to stores for brand new physical media, as a lot of the ones near my house have been phased out, and it's only a matter of time before the remaining ones disappear as well. I'm even more surprised that it really took until the early 2010s for such a thing to get going. I thought that it was going to happen in the late 2000s. (It sort of did, but not at the rate it's gone in the early 2010s.)

I also find people-pleasing to be very depressing, and I'm still guilty of it in lots of ways. I think I need to find a balance when it comes to caring and not caring about what other people think of me. I still think that it works both ways though, because being too uncaring about what other people think of me can also lead to me becoming extremely inconsiderate. And well, feeling and being inconsiderate is not just a bummer, but also an awkward bummer.

[Magtig]

Stalkers. You never really know if they're creepy and harmless or creepy and harmful, especially when they know how to get to you and could show up at any minute. I know this guy is mentally ill, but he's exhibited rapey behavior towards my ex, which is especially strange because he's clearly gay. In fact, he's really just after me (this is according to my ex, btw). What a confused load of fuck.


Indulgent, self-important introspection masquerading as sensitivity.
I think I know what you mean, but can I get an example please?

[Timinator]

Indulgent, self-important introspection masquerading as sensitivity.I think I know what you mean, but can I get an example please? Everything posted by Kris.

[ibanez33]

Everything posted by Kris.

http://i.imgur.com/39qp6j6.png

lol

[Halo Infinity]

Any situation or location where I don't know exactly what to say, and when to say it, or also not knowing how exactly to take things that are said to me. This is sometimes also based more on awkwardness, obliviousness and ignorance as opposed to fear and sadness.

Saying the wrong things at the wrong times and places. Saying too much, when less or nothing should be said. Saying too little when I should've spoken up more. This is also why I actually feel a lot more comfortable when humor is avoided in most conversations. This isn't to say that I can't laugh at anything, but humor in social interaction is where I constantly keep messing up, especially when the joke's on me, or whenever I'm making the jokes. As mentioned in other posts and threads, I've been terrible at that for about as long as I can remember. I also try to avoid intense emotions in public for this very reason as well.

This pretty much sums up my problems and qualms regarding miscommunication altogether. Hindsight in general can also be a tremendous downer since it can always be held against me, as I'm also prone to bouts of shame, guilt and regret as my own worst critic and enemy. (Along with realizing that there was a lot of stuff I should have never ever said to start with.)

[Sarah K]

I just made an awful decision and watched one of those slideshows of photos that was made for my grandma's funeral.

What a fucking dumb thing to do.

[wizfan]

Needles. They're tiny and they scare the hell out of me. I don't want those pesky bastards entering my body. I HATE THEM.

I was going to post this in the Irrational Fears thread, but then I found out it's a pretty common fear.

[Charmingly Miserable]

Being constantly lonely.

[elevenism]

Being constantly lonely.

That is one of my worst fears, being alone. People belong in pairs.

Here is another one...lately i have been constantly terrified of being abducted by "aliens." I use the quotation marks because i believe that they are inter-dimensional beings rather than interstellar travelers.

What EVER the fuck they are, those standard grey aliens...i am SO scared of waking up in their custody!

[somethingelse]

Having no safety zone. Fleeing from one motel to another. Waking up not knowing where I am and feeling like my psyche is wet tissue paper about to tear.
Knowing that I brought these conditions upon myself, knowing I am to blame for pushing you over the edge, not seeing the hurt building in you until it was too late - all in the name of avoidance, denial. I hate myself for that. Not because of what the consequences have born, but because I was ignorant to you. Something I thought I would never be.

[ophelia_]

Having no safety zone. Fleeing from one motel to another. Waking up not knowing where I am and feeling like my psyche is wet tissue paper about to tear.
Knowing that I brought these conditions upon myself, knowing I am to blame for pushing you over the edge, not seeing the hurt building in you until it was too late - all in the name of avoidance, denial. I hate myself for that. Not because of what the consequences have born, but because I was ignorant to you. Something I thought I would never be.

Doesn't sound like you're in the best place, not sure where abouts in Oz you are but if you're near Sydney/Wollongong then I'm happy to catch up for a coffee if you wanna have a chat. Hope things get better for you.

[somethingelse]

^ Oh woah, see how awesome the folk are around these ETS parts? That is a kind, great offer and thank you for extending a hand, but I have just arrived at Port Augusta heading west. Anyway, I'm better off alone right now. The head space that only one person could fix, if only. I have let down the one I love, and this pain is what I deserve. And I still have internet credit so I can vent some shit on the board. Thank you ophelia_

[tony.parente]

What EVER the fuck they are, those standard grey aliens...i am SO scared of waking up in their custody!

I would be SO FUCKING PSYCHED to be abducted by aliens. Mother of god I would be so excited.

[icecream]

Dying. Thinking about the end of consciousness freaks me out and keeps me up at night, (like now). I'm banking on getting old and falling apart. Eventually I won't give a shit once it becomes a hassle to get out of a chair. Getting old scares me too, though. Most interactions with strangers scare me too.

[elevenism]

I would be SO FUCKING PSYCHED to be abducted by aliens. Mother of god I would be so excited.

see that's what my mom says too.
i don't know why it scares me so bad...maybe the fuckers have already abducted me
icecream , i've gotten on a kick where i was just utterly consumed with the horror of my eventual demise, and as a matter of fact, the first time it happened i was about your age.
i'm a little more convinced now that this life isn't the only one. and i'm not one of those christians who has a solid belief in an afterlife where we retain our selves and uncle charlie and gramma and the dog are waiting for us.

but there's SOMETHING...i fucking FEEL it in my heart of hearts. and i DO believe that the force that created us has insured that that something isn't fucking godawful. on the other hand, if, god forbid, our consciousness DOES just go out like a light...well, how bad could that really be?
But i REALLY don't think that's the case.

[icecream]

It's just the thought of not existing freaks me out. Once you aren't conscious you won't know that your dead. But that not existing again forever is weird. Every moment here is important but I seem to waste them doing unimportant things like fucking around on ETS. I could take that time and learn Russian or something. The Smiths song Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now has really stuck with me lately.

[Timinator]

That ETS has a "Professional Wrestling" thread.

[Maul]

One of the things that really bring me down are the fact that my family won't be around forever.I know it sounds duh stupid but you're having some discussion with them or enjoying their company and suddenly you realize that one day you'll wake up in the morning and you won't be able to phone them or talk to them in any way.Makes me really sad.

[blackholesun]

Two nights ago, I took some advil a little before bed because my back was hurting. It made my back feel fine, but I felt my heart pounding and felt like I was feeling some fluttering feeling as I was trying to fall asleep. It didn't feel irregular, but I was a little freaked out. My girlfriend, who had already been asleep, woke up startled and asked if I was okay and said she had a dream that I had a heart attack. She had no idea my pulse was feeling weird. I was fully freaked out.

Death in general gets me down. I'm afraid to die. My mom passed away a month ago and I never realized how much I could truly miss a person. It helps to just be around the ones I love and enjoy their company to the fullest.

[Halo Infinity]

Hornets, bees, roaches, moths, maggots, worms, slugs and spiders. Drowning, heights and flying. Bad surprises.

[ophelia_]

You're more than welcome. Feel free to inbox me if you need to chat or anything.

[implanted_microchip]

It's just the thought of not existing freaks me out. Once you aren't conscious you won't know that your dead. But that not existing again forever is weird. Every moment here is important but I seem to waste them doing unimportant things like fucking around on ETS.

Something that helps me is knowing that really, time enjoyed isn't time wasted. I think spending time conversing with a community of people you mesh with and make your day better/more entertaining is totally valuable, not everyone has that luxury. Learning Russian would be cool, too, but would it lead to you doing something incredible like becoming a diplomat or helping Russian tourists travel, etc.? Not necessarily, it would just be something interesting and fun you did that you enjoy. Isn't that what anything you enjoy is? I am able to feel far less guilty about spending so much of my life focusing on things that I simply enjoy/love because knowing we get so little time means that I'm doing things that ensure that those moments are less miserable than what they could be. I'd much rather spend my time doing something that makes me feel happy as a person and doesn't hurt someone than doing something that makes my life miserable but is technically a productive thing. And being happy is productive -- not only does it make your day/life better, but those who care about you and are close to you will be better off knowing that you are doing well, too.

[icecream]

Something that helps me is knowing that really, time enjoyed isn't time wasted. I think spending time conversing with a community of people you mesh with and make your day better/more entertaining is totally valuable, not everyone has that luxury. Learning Russian would be cool, too, but would it lead to you doing something incredible like becoming a diplomat or helping Russian tourists travel, etc.? Not necessarily, it would just be something interesting and fun you did that you enjoy. Isn't that what anything you enjoy is? I am able to feel far less guilty about spending so much of my life focusing on things that I simply enjoy/love because knowing we get so little time means that I'm doing things that ensure that those moments are less miserable than what they could be. I'd much rather spend my time doing something that makes me feel happy as a person and doesn't hurt someone than doing something that makes my life miserable but is technically a productive thing. And being happy is productive -- not only does it make your day/life better, but those who care about you and are close to you will be better off knowing that you are doing well, too.
It sounds a lot better when you put it that way. I always think, "I could be doing this or that instead and my life would be more fulfilled." Then I just think, "Fuck it, doesn't matter what I do because I'm going to die anyway and nothing I did will matter." But as long as I'm doing something I enjoy it doesn't really matter what I do.

[somethingelse]

After living with pooches for a long time and now not, I always skip a heart beat when opening the front door. Even though I know I've closed the adjacent door so they can't get out, a little voice screamed "check the dogs!". This still happens and depresses the fuck out of me.

[Halo Infinity]

Jealousy, envy, people-pleasing, guilt, shame and regret. Having a very hard time forgetting bad experiences and them letting go. Being called boring, as it can even hurt as much as being called stupid.

[The_Prowler]

Kanye West is married and I'm still single... That depresses the everloving fuck out of me.

[ophelia_]

Kanye West is married and I'm still single... That depresses the everloving fuck out of me.

Now I'm depressed about that as well... Dammit.

[Halo Infinity]

Realizing that so many things could've been done differently, or didn't have to be to start with. Failing miserably at being a good person. (This also includes bad thoughts, emotions and words on my part.)

Having a lack of trust and forgiveness in myself and others to the point that I isolate myself to complete loneliness. I sometimes live like a hermit because of that. It also certainly reminds me as to why lots of people are just able to let things go and move on to the point of even forgetting it all/any bad deeds/experiences that might've occurred.

[Charmingly Miserable]

Kanye West is married and I'm still single... That depresses the everloving fuck out of me.
My therapist suggested that I read this book on relationships. One of the chapter titles went something like this: Everyone is married the second time around and I haven't been on the first date. Fuuuuuuuuuck. I feel your pain.

[Dra508]

Kanye West is married and I'm still single... That depresses the everloving fuck out of me.Um ah, am I stating the obvious here or do you want to be married to Kim Kardashian? If anything, to me, this marriage proves that marriage is a farce to many.



Alzheimer's, that scares/depresses me.

[Halo Infinity]

Realizing how wrong I was, and remembering most of my blunders, and seeing how many mistakes I've made in life. Being in a position where I can't rectify any problems or undo any wrongs. I know I'm also repeating myself again, but I finally found the exact words I wanted to use to express this point. It really is scary and depressing as it's definitely one of those things that makes me want to run and hide.

[The_Prowler]

My therapist suggested that I read this book on relationships. One of the chapter titles went something like this: Everyone is married the second time around and I haven't been on the first date. Fuuuuuuuuuck. I feel your pain.
Don't worry, we'll find the right one eventually. *Hugs* There's someone out there for everyone; we've just got to keep looking.

[The_Prowler]

Um ah, am I stating the obvious here or do you want to be married to Kim Kardashian? If anything, to me, this marriage proves that marriage is a farce to many.
Uh, no, I most assuredly don't want to be married to Kim Kardashian. I was just raising the point that he's married, not who he's married to.

[Halo Infinity]

Speeding vehicles in heavy traffic.

[Millionaire]

I have an art project I've barely touched, but I'm so swamped with work and other stuff that I don't know if I'll ever get it done. It depresses me that I've been avoiding it. I really need a little discipline to just start the thing when I have down time. I know when I start doing it I'll work on it for the rest of the day. I just have to start the damn thing instead of vegging.

[Halo Infinity]

Sometimes it happens to me on Facebook. I'll understand if that doesn't make any sense to some of you, but I'm sometimes subjected to feeling bummed out and out of place on Facebook. It's also one of the several reasons as to why I've always had an on and off relationship with it. This isn't to say that it's Facebook's fault though, as I'm aware that Facebook itself isn't to blame.

I don't think I've ever felt that on Twitter though, but then again, Twitter seems to be a lot more impersonal to start with. I've also had an on and off relationship with Twitter, but for different reasons.

I've been this way with social media since Xanga in mid 2002. This also happened to me on Xanga and Myspace.

[Swykk]

Neuropathy sucks. As the years go on, it makes things I love doing, like Chicago Comic Con, much harder.

[elevenism]

Neuropathy sucks. As the years go on, it makes things I love doing, like Chicago Comic Con, much harder.
i'm really sorry that you suffer from that, man.

i have a good friend who says that it is HELL...he can't feel his feet anymore.

for me, my friends dying is fucking tearing me up.
it's at least one a year now, and i'm talking CLOSE friends.

part of it has to do with the fact that a LOT of my friends are junkies.
my friend elizabeth was a junky who had been clean. she killed herself, but she relapsed right before she did it.
i've been super close with her for 17 years.

that being said, my friend shannon is dying in the hospital and it ISN'T drug related.

sigh. i hate this shit. the scary thing is it's starting to become the norm.

[Halo Infinity]

When strangers talk to me in real life. It's even worse with the trust issues I have. It also seems to be at its worst when it's as if they're sneaking up behind you making noises and shouting. And in some, or even most cases, I also don't find myself trusting loud people in real life all that much either. They usually came across as rude and aggressive instigators to me, or they sometimes even were actually rude and aggressive.

I also apologize in advance for the generalizations and this display, as I'm sure that not every single stranger or loud speaker is like that, but I was just reminded as to how much these things scare me. That's why I also made sure to use words such as some and most.

But yes, it just scared me recently. I need to work on this fear, as it sometimes doesn't make any sense, that is to say, aside from perhaps the context my overall history, experience and memories with bullying and receiving threats which I hope are actually some valid exceptions. I also just felt like venting it out here, as this seemed to be the only right thread to do it.

[thelastdisciple]

I just found out someone that i posted in a forum and went to high school with years ago although never knew very well (thank fuck) is now fighting for ISIS.

Really caught me off guard, i was like WTF?! i actually had to go through an old high school yearbook just to double check and sure enough it's the same dude. Shit is crazy.

Definitely scary to think that this guy is aligned with people that cut other people's heads off.

[elevenism]

I just found out someone that i posted in a forum and went to high school with years ago although never knew very well (thank fuck) is now fighting for ISIS.

Really caught me off guard, i was like WTF?! i actually had to go through an old high school yearbook just to double check and sure enough it's the same dude. Shit is crazy.

Definitely scary to think that this guy is aligned with people that cut other people's heads off.

that's fucking nuts

[Halo Infinity]

This would seem more like an epic fear, as flight provides an epic view, but yes... I still have a tremendous fear of flying. I'm actually able to get over it from time to time, but it has always scared me on some level. The same also goes for riding boats of any kind.

I also still find it interesting to see how expressing happiness and anger seems to be considered more normal and acceptable than expressing sadness and fear. Or so it seems.

[miss k bee]

Definitely family getting ill. My parents are elderly now and I live with Dad and my mum and sister live in the Caribbean. Healthcare in the Caribbean is not great and my mum and sister both have health problems. Just found out last week one of my uncle's had a heart op and another one is very ill. Tough times.

[Halo Infinity]

For quite some time... receiving "New post quotes" without "Likes" in my notifications... as I currently interpret that as, "What in the fuck did I say this time?" in most cases based on experience. :p

-Edit-

Being awake at night for extended periods of time whenever I'm in a sad/bored/empty mood, as my mind tends to wander a lot more than usual, which ultimately leads to more depression, emptiness and loneliness. However, when I'm in a good mood, I just doze off.

I'm still also coping with being called boring. It sometimes ranks up there with being called stupid and a piece of shit.

[Charmingly Miserable]

I live with my 92 year old granny who has Alzheimer's disease. She fell last week and ever since Christmas, she has been hallucinating and not doing so well. On top of that, she has been under the weather too, which I think, compounds things. She literally just came into the living room to yell at me for the horrible job I did to her ceiling in her room. In her mind, I must have written all over the ceiling. I love my granny and I don't want to think this is the beginning of the end for her. This is tough.

[green]

I keep telling myself the world has gone to shit, but maybe it's that I've become an adult and have never really payed close enough attention to the news to realize the world has always been this chaotic. Which is it?

[elevenism]

are you guys familiar with the Elisa Lam case?
this is the scariest thing i've ever seen/heard.

seriously...what in the fucking fuck?!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dYHzblg84A

[Melancholygrl78]

The court battle I am getting ready to face for full custody. I hate to hurt my ex-husband because I still love him and wish he wouldn't force my hand by making irresponsible choices with our children.

[Millionaire]

I suffer from a softer form of depression, not really close to clinical but it ebbs and flows. Sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming, but most of the time I'm fine. I've been learning to deal with it as I get older, and it doesn't get to me as much these days, but some days the circumstances of the world just work against you too much and it comes back. Stress is the no. 1 trigger of it for me, and about a week ago when trying to do work on the job and handle some personal business with family while struggling through a bad flu really got me down and its still with me a bit. It sucks, it always sucks, and will always suck but I live through it. Its all you can do.

[kel]

are you guys familiar with the Elisa Lam case?
this is the scariest thing i've ever seen/heard.

seriously...what in the fucking fuck?!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dYHzblg84A
this is insane. i'm completely fascinated by this hotel/hostel now. next time i'm in l.a. (during the daytime in that area or adjacent skid row), i'm taking the metro and snapping some photos, maybe check out the lobby.

such a sordid past. i could never stay at such a place, but only because they (no shit) have NO heating or a.c.

[Halo Infinity]

My fear of drowning and heights has driven me to want to avoid deep bodies of water and high places as much as possible. I can also see how that can get in the way of a lot of people's vacation preferences when traveling, while being very limiting them but for me, I'd rather just settle for flat, dry land at all times. The majority of my family actual enjoys swimming, riding on boats and visiting high places like mountains. I have actually drowned before as well. And at best, I'd hope to at least learn swimming just for the sake of survival. On the other hand, I also feel like even if I knew how to swim very well, my fear of drowning would still be there anyway. It probably wouldn't be as bad as it is now, but it most likely wouldn't just go away altogether.

On a slightly lighter note, I suppose this also gets me to cringe, but also understand that there are people on other parts of the world that would also cringe at the toilet seat too, especially from what I've read on that site, which thankfully gave me a better understanding of it. From what I've also experienced, the toilets in some parts and places of the Philippines also don't have any covers and seats. Some of them also need water poured down them as means to become flushed. They also don't put toilet paper in their public bathrooms because it'll just end up getting stolen.

I get what it's saying too, but yeah, I'm just too used to the type of bathroom I grew up with.

http://toilet-guru.com/seatless.php

[Melancholygrl78]

My fear is losing my independence. I cannot stand to depend on anyone else. I am the one others depend on. This fact renders me completely unmarriageable. I love freedom soooo much. I love taking the lead in every aspect and managing the household, my career, where I go, and how I get there without interference from anyone. It feels amazing! My sister called me a "control freak" after my divorce from a very lengthy marriage and maybe I am but, I love having that "take charge" mentality and the results from it. It's like I am recovering from arrested development.

[avesjohn]

Today, one of our dogs turned 14 years old. That's pretty impressive for a golden retriever. Unfortunately, for a while now, she's had a growing tumor on her side, though it never appeared to cause any problems until this morning, when the growth on suddenly burst, spilling blood all over the house. Luckily, my mom and I were there (had this been later in the day, one or both of us might have been out of the house), and we hurried her into the car and over to the vet, which is just two blocks away. She's spending the night there, and we'll pick her up tomorrow, when she'll be partially shaved and wrapped in bandages that will need to be watched carefully on a daily basis to prevent this from happening again.

Needless to say, even though she'll come out of this more or less okay, we all know she's near her end - it's just a question of when she'll truly start to suffer and we'll have to put her own.

She was supposed to be doted with extra treats and loving on this special birthday. Instead she's spending the night at the pet hospital.:(

[Halo Infinity]

Being around people that incessantly have a toxic tendency to instigate turn anything and everything into a perpetual contest/competition and/or debate/argument.

[ldopa]

Being around people that incessantly have a toxic tendency to instigate turn anything and everything into a perpetual contest/competition and/or debate/argument.

i have a co-worker who THRIVES on the shit you mentioned. everything that comes out of his mouth is complete vitriol about fellow co-workers, owners, clients... he has no friends or allies at the shop (or prolly in life) because he runs out of both sides of his mouth and can't / doesn't even try to keep up with his shit stirring lies. his days are truly numbered. he's getting worse and more careless.

don't worry @Kris (http://www.echoingthesound.org/community/member.php?u=244) , pigs get what pigs deserve!

[Pillfred]

i have a co-worker who THRIVES on the shit you mentioned. everything that comes out of his mouth is complete vitriol about fellow co-workers, owners, clients... he has no friends or allies at the shop (or prolly in life) because he runs out of both sides of his mouth and can't / doesn't even try to keep up with his shit stirring lies. his days are truly numbered. he's getting worse and more careless.

don't worry @Kris (http://www.echoingthesound.org/community/member.php?u=244) , pigs get what pigs deserve!
Pretty sure this was a big reason I got canned from my last job. What's worse I go in on Sundays fit service industry night, %50 off drinks, and this grinfucker talks, I'm sure the same he talked about me, about most everyone else. I'm got a good fuck you smile so I name but really I'm just there for cheap drinks and Internet's to get my shows for the week.

[ldopa]

Pretty sure this was a big reason I got canned from my last job. What's worse I go in on Sundays fit service industry night, %50 off drinks, and this grinfucker talks, I'm sure the same he talked about me, about most everyone else. I'm got a good fuck you smile so I name but really I'm just there for cheap drinks and Internet's to get my shows for the week.

oh! you're a sinner :D
bank on the fact he talked the same about you! he's seemingly miserable and you're seemingly not, so it's cool. everything is everything.

[Pillfred]

I know he did even after I was gone. Never once to my face though. Here's not a bad dude I guess but still yeah fuck him. I'll drinks his shots he buys. ;)

[ldopa]

free holy water is always a blessing. just mind your liquid tongue and heart :P
that's the funny thing, assholes who stir up garbage are never bad people per se, they just can't fucking live and let live.

[kel]

the average lifespan of dogs. so unfair.

[ldopa]

only the good die young.
my parents have a cheshire cat (english shorthair) that has been alive for 20 years and counting. it's an all outdoor cat too. unbelievable.

[halloween]

The fact that it was an outdoor cat makes sense to me as it's probably getting more exercise than indoor cats do. Both the cats at my dad's house are outdoor cats and one is 12 and the other 11 years old and I'm sure they'll live another 5 easily.

My dog (a japanese chin) is 11 and I'm just hoping that she'll make it to 15 yrs. She's never had any major health problems but that might change in the coming years.

[allegro]

The fact that it was an outdoor cat makes sense to me as it's probably getting more exercise than indoor cats do. Both the cats at my dad's house are outdoor cats and one is 12 and the other 11 years old and I'm sure they'll live another 5 easily.

I had an always-indoor cat who I finally had to euthenize at 21 due to kidney problems. She was Siamese, my vet says that breed tends to live longer. Outdoor cats actually tend to live shorter lives due to accidents, injuries, getting hit by cars. etc.

My dog Cookie may have cancer, we are waiting for test results. She is 12 and a Poodle mix, her breed tends to live 12 to 15 years.

[halloween]

I had an always-indoor cat who I finally had to euthenize at 21 due to kidney problems. She was Siamese, my vet says that breed tends to live longer. Outdoor cats actually tend to live shorter lives due to accidents, injuries, getting hit by cars. etc.

My dog Cookie may have cancer, we are waiting for test results. She is 12 and a Poodle mix, her breed tends to live 12 to 15 years.

Ah, yeah accidents and injuries, I get that. My dad's cats live in the woods so they don't go near the roads but they are lucky not to have encountered bigger animals.

Here's hoping your dog is clear of cancer!!

[ldopa]

my parents cat is too big and too lazy / old to run around risking injuries. that thing lives like caligula. (ironic thing: it's name is boots)

good vibes for you and your doggie allegro.

[halloween]

I'm in the process of digitizing my old journals (I have 29 of them here at my dad's house and I can't really bring them with me on a plane) and I hope to fucking god no one hacks my computer and finds these things.

[kel]

adele's lyrics, specifically "hello" and "send my love (to your new lover)".

i've never resented a pop star more.

[Ryan]

I need to poo but I'm too comfortable to get up, so I feel like (as Cartman says) I'm being raped from the inside.

[Ryan]

I had an always-indoor cat who I finally had to euthenize at 21 due to kidney problems. She was Siamese, my vet says that breed tends to live longer. Outdoor cats actually tend to live shorter lives due to accidents, injuries, getting hit by cars. etc.

My dog Cookie may have cancer, we are waiting for test results. She is 12 and a Poodle mix, her breed tends to live 12 to 15 years.

How is your dog?

[Boots]

I have been bullied several times, but I believe in karma. I also believe that a real gentleman would never bully or harass a woman, online or otherwise.

[kel]

I have been bullied several times, but I believe in karma. I also believe that a real gentleman would never bully or harass a woman, online or otherwise.

enough with your passive aggressive bullshit. nobody is bullying you -- you signed up to a message board based on engaging in conversation. you don't do that. you post really odd shit while contributing nothing, get called out, act like a victim.

[Halo Infinity]

Infatuation and just having a crush, especially when the chances are basically slim to none. On the other hand, at least rejection actually hurts far less than never ever knowing at all.

[motionlessZombie]

The thought of the woman that I like being interested in someone else.

[Halo Infinity]

the average lifespan of dogs. so unfair.
I might've been a bit too disturbed to respond to this at the time, but since actually experiencing dog ownership, holy shit do you never forget that feeling of loss. It's also no wonder why some people never get a dog again.

My dog was actually passed down from a previous owner who gave him up because he was moving to an apartment that didn't allow dogs. He was a brown, black and white (Kind of colored like Duracell batteries.) beagle named Eagle, and had him from 2005 to 2013, and turned out that he lived a much better other half of his life at my house, since the previous owner's parents would just keep him in the basement, where my parents and I were able to walk him regularly and have much more variety of food to eat while being free to roam around the house as he pleased with his own bed and blanket, as well as his liberty to lounge and stretch about on just about any couch. Eagle probably would've lived a bit longer, but cancer took his life at the age of 15. That really fucked me up for quite some time, but he lives on in my memories every single day.

Before having a dog, I never really got that connection until now.

[Haysey_Draws]

I have been constantly thinking about growing old and death and it's really breaking me. Seeing my Granddad get to a point where he now needs almost constant help after having been mostly independent really makes me not want to get old. I don't have any kids myself or a partner (and i can't see that changing), i just have my sisters and nieces, and the last thing i want is them having to look after me, i also worry about having been super independent myself how i would even handle that. It's also making me think about just how much time i have left to enjoy and that then spirals and it's starting to really trigger my depression again :(

[Halo Infinity]

@Haysey (https://www.echoingthesound.org/community/member.php?u=5491) - I've also been going through that as well and it really is no wonder why I still sometimes block that out. Just the thought that even if I were able to run and hide from most, if not all my fears and causes/sources of sadness, old age is one of those things that'll always get me should I even live long enough. Seeing what you've seen is why I've always had a habit of looking away since I was a child, but one can clearly only turn a blind eye to something for so long.

Come to think about it, blocking this out is also exactly like how I also block out even the slightest thoughts of the reality of innocent people being wrongly incarcerated in prison, or people being involuntarily committed to a mental institution or homelessness in general. It's just way too much of a mindfuck.

And the stories of the elderly also dying alone without any means of help either. A real mindfuck right there.

It ultimately reminds me why one can't blame people finding peace, joy and hope in all sorts of things, like religion or at least something "like" religion for that matter, or even just humor itself.

I'd like to actually find something positive to say in spite of the nature of this thread, but it's hard since even taking care of your body and mind while you're young isn't always an absolutely guarantee of painless advanced age.

I know it's also life and all, but it truly is like "What the fuck? Damn it!" sometimes you know. :p

[SandwichHopscotch]

It's the first anniversary of my mum's death and I'm pretty sure there's not a single person aside from me that's remembered.

[allegate]

I've seen the NKUSBP (https://twitter.com/hashtag/NKUSBP?src=hashtag_click) hasgtag a lot today and about 99% of them are people giving positive impressions of super bowl commercials. like, creepy pod-people kind of positive impressions. I mean who the fuck talks like that on purpose? are all of these people shilling? employees? paid accounts? wtf is going on.

[Demogorgon]

I've seen the NKUSBP (https://twitter.com/hashtag/NKUSBP?src=hashtag_click) hasgtag a lot today and about 99% of them are people giving positive impressions of super bowl commercials. like, creepy pod-people kind of positive impressions. I mean who the fuck talks like that on purpose? are all of these people shilling? employees? paid accounts? wtf is going on.

what does that stand for? something something something Super Bowl?

[allegate]

what does that stand for? something something something Super Bowl?
doing some searching and apparently it's a marketing class so NKU (university?) Super Bowl Project I guess.

some bio quotes

Live tweeting for the Super Bowl in MKT308



MKT 308 Student



MKT-308 super bowl live tweet account



I only made this for my marketing class lol


still creepy.

[allegro]

doing some searching and apparently it's a marketing class so NKU (university?) Super Bowl Project I guess.

It’s a 300-level marketing class.

When I took it, we HAD to watch the Super Bowl and study all the ads from a marketing perspective. There was an EXAM.

So basically, they’re in a study group.

Edit: Funny memory about this: The Professor went around the class and asked students to provide insight into various SB ads (from a marketing perspective), including criticism. She got to one student who said “I dunno.” Prof said huh? Student said “I didn’t watch it.” Prof, looking quizzical like maybe student was in a car crash or something, asked for reason (the SB assignment WAS NOT AN ELECTIVE). Student said:

“I don’t like football.”

[allegate]

online learning has come a long way. I admit it's a little less scary from a "the bots are coming alive" standpoint when it's just a marketing class.

But then I remember Bill Hicks and it's just as bad as I thought! :P

[allegro]

online learning has come a long way. I admit it's a little less scary from a "the bots are coming alive" standpoint when it's just a marketing class.

But then I remember Bill Hicks and it's just as bad as I thought! :P
Even brick and mortar schools have online classes, especially MBA programs.

Students are so used to using online programs like Blackboard and Canvas, it’s not a stretch for them to organize study groups online. Social media’s the easiest route. Twitter accounts are easily disposable.

[katara]

Waking up tomorrow, and the next day, ad nauseam, one day at a time, just existing, trying to cope, dealing with this place, this life, other people, and myself until I die.

I'm not scared; I don't feel anything at all. Absent.

I cannot motivate myself anymore.

[katara]

The fact that everyone (including myself) is changing in ways I can't control. Sometimes it's a good change, sometimes it's a bad change, but always, it's a change that ensures that a part of that person is gone forever.

[allegate]

I saw something a few weeks ago (could be days...on the Internet there is no time...) that said everyone is carrying around a version of you in their head that no longer exists. it made me pause and think because I have friends back home who I haven't seen in almost 25 years* and to me they're still 18/19 and tearing ass everywhere when in reality one has three kids and is divorced, another has at least two kids and is divorced...twice I think?...and so on. but I don't think of them in those terms but very rarely.

*holy crap it's 25 years. I typed 15 and then did the math...Jesus.

[Siah13]

My chldren getting sick or even dying. So much that just typing that sentence I hesitated and had to force myself to type those words. It's, like, normal and all... But FUCK. It's unreal how fierce my need to shield them, to protect them is... I have to remind myself that I can't just hole up with them in the wilderness and avoid society and the world just so they can grow old alone, alienated and damaged... Or can I...? LOL. NOOOOO... AHHHHH!

I was severely sexually abused when I was a child and as such I have a pretty intense fear of windows being uncovered, although I've been working on it for years so it's wayyyy better than it used to be.

[outofthisworld]

1. Death (Like, it's a problem.)

2. The depressing parts about aging.

3. Cockroaches

4. Occasional OCDish thoughts about poison/toxic things.

5. Republicans.

6. Incuriosity/ignorance.

7. My lack of experience/constant getting older.

Before reading this thread and especially this post, I though that I had a trivial phobias like fear of heights or trypophobia, but now... I guess I get a new phobia every year because I'm getting older. Also, I live alone now and man, who would ever though that getting rid of spiders (https://pestcontrolhacks.com/how-to-get-rid-of-spiders-tips-from-the-experts-perspective/) and cockroaches can be tricky enough.

[sean121]

Clowns scares me. I mean, they are supposed to make people laugh but for me it is the other way around.

[allegate]

it's a triptych. spoiler: don't read if you love your animals or have lost one recently.

I cried for about five minutes because I miss my cat but it also let me think about how we had almost 18 years with her and a ton of fun with how silly she was so it's a bittersweet feeling.

https://i.imgur.com/QjutM0F.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/orEVQl4.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/bLdmgOX.jpg

[allegate]

https://twitter.com/erinbiba/status/1299072513088147462

Going for "scary" on this one.

[Jinsai]

anyone who needs to be told to not wear Amazon gear that monitors everything about you... they're probably not going to listen

[allegate]

"I'm not getting a COVID vaccine but I love Facebook and I can't wait for a halo!"

[GulDukat]

Donald J. Trump and the thought of a second term.

[allegate]

https://twitter.com/doctorow/status/1304450801746587648

Jesus Christ.

[allegate]

https://i.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/original/000/017/916/Shits_4b0362_1564208.jpg

https://www.theatlantic.com/photo/2020/09/photos-oregon-communities-devastated-wildfires/616344/

[zero]

Right now, living scares me. The social unrest and polarization is at a tipping point. There is almost no chance that things will simply work out in the end. People have completely lost any semblance of compassion or sanity. I will quietly take a number from the plastic pick-a-number thingy and wait. For whatever.

[allegate]

https://twitter.com/geeequinn/status/1314187012144918528?s=20

[Erneuert]

https://twitter.com/geeequinn/status/1314187012144918528?s=20

That was extremely satisfying.