be careful with the ativan, very addictive!
I started to depend on it about 5 years ago, try and stay away from the benzos, they are a nasty bunch of meds
Phennigan is probably safer, it's an antihistamine, but is known for its calming at a higher dose, and it's available over the counter! so you could ask a pharmacist their advice
good luck
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