Originally Posted by
BRoswell
I'm in a weird place when it comes to being in a relationship. I met this guy almost two years ago. Originally it was just for work, but we started talking and struck up a friendship. Eventually we started talking so much that I felt comfortable enough to tell him that I was gay, something I hadn't even done with the friends I had known for many years. I already knew he was gay based on a few details, but I figured I would let him tell me that instead of trying to pry it out of him. It was good to be "out" to someone. Anyway, after we got to know each other better, I realized that I really liked him a lot, and I finally told him. He was cool with it, but he admitted that he wasn't really into being in a relationship. I've never really talked to him about it, but the way he's talked about some subjects, it makes me think that he's been burned a few times in the past, so he's basically sworn off relationships. I've never been one for labels, so I don't really care if he and I are "dating", but I do love him.
Where was I going with this? Oh yeah. Even though we're not officially a couple, I still kind of feel like we're in a relationship. We see each other at least once a week, we talk online every day (I'm currently living about twenty miles away from him), and we've been pretty intimate. We haven't fucked, but we've discussed doing that at some point when we can both get away from our respective families (mine is really homophobic and they don't know I'm gay yet) and responsibilities for a day or two. He's a kinky guy, and he has other friends that he hangs out with and has playdates with, which I'm completely fine with. However, I feel like he and I have connected in a way that he hasn't with some of the other people he's met. Truth be told, if he asked me to officially be his boyfriend, I would say yes, but I don't think that's going to happen, and I don't know if I would want it to. I'm afraid it would fuck up what we have, which is something that I've never really had before. Anyway, I guess we're "friends with benefits", but I feel like we're just a bit more than that, and I think he feels that way too, but he's kind of a guarded person when it comes to really emotional stuff. I don't think he would ever say that he loves me, but at the same time, he doesn't really have to. We just seem to have this unspoken thing between us, and I feel fine about just leaving it be and not dissecting it too much.