Originally Posted by
kleiner352
Another part of my social anxiety, I think, stems from weight issues. I've lost a lot of weight in the past two months now and in general over the past year and have struggled with that most of my life. So when you're a fat person, especially when you're younger throughout school, you just get so used to a constant feeling of visual scrutiny and judgment, of people looking at you differently and thinking lesser of you. There's a lot of general negativity thrown at you for being overweight. Now that I'm much more healthy (I still have a way to go before I'm both at a target weight and comfortable with myself though) and I look better in general, that's not really there anymore, but I'm so used to it. I actually get hit on and get compliments a lot lately whenever I go out, yet I'm so used to the exact opposite that it's very difficult to let my guard down. I'm constantly over-analyzing looks and expressions, body language, phrases, etc. When people hit on me I have a hard time not thinking they're just being cruel and pretending. I have a hard time taking compliments as anything but consolatory. Having your body size and attractiveness improve dramatically is just very disorienting and I almost find it harder socially than when I was just really fat and the only attention I had was negative, because at least I didn't misread things.