My chldren getting sick or even dying. So much that just typing that sentence I hesitated and had to force myself to type those words. It's, like, normal and all... But FUCK. It's unreal how fierce my need to shield them, to protect them is... I have to remind myself that I can't just hole up with them in the wilderness and avoid society and the world just so they can grow old alone, alienated and damaged... Or can I...? LOL. NOOOOO... AHHHHH!

I was severely sexually abused when I was a child and as such I have a pretty intense fear of windows being uncovered, although I've been working on it for years so it's wayyyy better than it used to be.