Finally bit the bullet and set up my first therapy session in a couple of weeks. My depression has lingered for years and years but I learned early on how to manage it independently. But over the last year and a half, I have finally truly spiraled out of control. I've been slowly losing hope in the world, and the way our current Government seems to be actively punishing us for simply existing, it's just really fucking destroyed my psyche. Yesterday I found myself literally wishing someone would smash in to me while I was driving. My lack of empathy and lack of motivation in general I think has finally hit a boiling point. I'm really scared of therapy for some reason, but I'm hoping this is the right call. I'm just tired of being numb to everything and sitting around waiting to die.